lots of bad lucks today..but happily making moments with the kids :)

Well, it's a heavy day..really dissapointing. I thought i strong enough but when my friends and colleagues remind me, i can't hold on anymore. I don't know how should i react.. should i cry or angry. I know i will always have this feeling for the next whole life of mine. Maybe it is what i've wanted, cause recently i asked for something thrilling..maybe i just act like a drama queen...but why there are questions about it. I can't differentiate whether it's normal or not..God, do i ask too much? Ok, i'll take it but i want every good things more than him..so that i can ease my own pain because of him.